This is my 31 years of my life.

Despite of not knowing what I could possibly write, I am now truly happy in love, or like everyone said I was blinded by love, And I am sorry if l have to looked back a couple of days before, things were pretty much hurtful, well, I did not expect everybody to understand why the hell I took this path,…but just let me be happy at least for a while, and hopefully forever.

Another year, another chapter, I hope I have a freaking, super, wonderful life

Not once you cross the ocean and cut yourself loose

Looking for something more beautiful, something more exciting

And yes, I admit something more dangerous

Just like every tourist, you want to be safe

So, never refuse an invitation

Never resist the unfamiliar

Never fail to be polite

And never outstay your welcome

Just keep your mind open, and suck in the experience

And if it hurts, it’s probably worth it

Everyone’s got the same idea, we all travel thousands of miles, just to check into somewhere with all the comforts of home, and you gotta ask yourself , what is the point of that?

If that’s the way it has to be, then that’s the way it is.

-The Beach-

So, gw dapet paket l'occitance dari istri dan anak si boss, flat shoes from my little brother, buku amazing ambon dan dvd Indonesian hidden underwater, paket body shop dari geng babi supaya gw rajin mandi hahahahah, dan belanja sama Ai di senayan city, dan dapet miss selfridge dress dan tas, cuma kurang sepatu Charles & keith yang gw mau aja *big grin* gara2 ga ada sizenya wuahahaha and ditutup dengan nice dinner di @pad28.

hello march

This march,
gue kepikiran untuk belajar bahasa itali, suka aja dengernya dan pengen bisa. ga salah donk namanya jg orang mau belajar.

This march,

less spending time at the mall, karena gue pengen berbagi banyak waktu sama ade gue, sekaligus menabung
untuk rencana dan prioritas lain.
This march,
i'm so looking forward for my singapore trip. yeahhhhh in 3 more weeks, 22 more days.
This march,
i will confirm my ticket to tanjung pandan
This march,
pengen ikut PA di gereja pangpol tiap kamis.
This march,
less cranky, and smile often. Be happy and do get mad easily. control my emotion and don't ever forget to pray.
hopefully all the good things will be mine. amin







 

Hallo 2012

Selamat tahun baru 2012.

Tahun yang katanya orang bakal jadi the end of everything, dan di penuhi bencana yang besar. Yeah, whatever.

Hari ini, tepat di hari ke-4, gue kembali masuk kantor, dan kembali beraktivitas. pagi ini meja gue dipenuhi document, greeting card, dan oleh2 berupa coklat, oreo green tea, dan makaan khas jepang.

Tahun baru kemana aja? Nope, gue ga kemana-mana. Jauh dari yang namanya liburan, jalan-jalan, atau bersenang-senang. Mungkin satu-satunya hiburan selama cuti kemarin adalah Christmas dinner di apartment teman di gandaria city, dan hiburannya adalah biscuit ganja dan baileys, yang cukup membuat gue ga mikir gimana fucked up nya keadaan.

But anyway, diantara berates-ratus hari gue pernah mengalami tawa, mungkin di tahun baru kali ini gue mengalami duka. Toh ga akan selamanya. Dan toh gue juga udah pernah merasakan kebahagian itu.

Jadi 2012, gue cuma pengen ade gue sembuh. Sembuh dan sehat selalu. Sepertinya untuk saat ini ga ada harapan dan keinginan melebihi melihat ade gue sehat kembali seperti dulu. Selebihnya, mudah2an segala urusan pekerjan, keluarga, pertemanan, perjodohon *yeah right* akan di beri kemudahan dan kelancaran.

Semoga akan menjadi awal baru yang indah…selamanya

amien

ceritanya di 2011

So..what do I do in the year 2011

Jadi 2011 ini gue menghabiskan waktu dengan bekerja untuk jalan-jalan, bekerja untuk nabung, beli ini itu, bekerja to earn money. That's it !!

Awal tahun bertemu dengan teman-teman baru. Dan terbentuk lah jalan stress. Yang sering jalan-jalan ga jelas, karaoke, makan dan nonton. Gue seneng banget dengan keberadaan temen-temen gue ini.

Bulan April, kalau di kantor gue terkenal dengan bulan sakit hati. Biasa..! karena banyak yang pada bitter karena mereka ga di promosiin. Dan ga fair, karena yang naik kelas justru mereka yang sebenarnya ga kompeten untuk kerja, modal nampang dan main lempar-lemparan. Tapi walaupun gue ga di promosiin karena system yang suck itu, akhir april gue ke bali donk.

Setelah hampir 3 tahun ga ke bali, akhirnya gue ke sana lagi. Banyak tempat-tempat happening yang baru, dan paling gue suka adalah ke pantai-pantai yang sepi pengunjung.

Tiada suka tanpa duka. Ade gue mulai jatuh sakit. Keadaannya yang up and down, sampai sekarang ngebuat gue untuk selalu ada buat dia dan keluarga. Dan sampai saat ini, kita semua ga pernah putus-putusnya berdoa semoga ade ku tercinta..akan kembali sehat dan gendut seperti dulu.

Oom gue juga hampir koma, pas beliau terkena serangan jantung. Tapi di balik itu semua, Tuhan memberikan makna yang indah, akhirnya gue dan sepupu gue bersatu kembali. Gue seneng banget, bisa berkumpul, ketawa2 bodoh lagi seperti dulu. Jadi dibalik awan hitam sekali pun, selalu ada berkat yang indah yang Tuhan kasih.

Tahun ini gue juga kembali mengunjungi pulau seribu. Ke pulau pramuka untuk ke tiga kalinya, ke pulau tidung untuk ke dua kali, bareng orang-orang kantor, ke pulau Harapan pake acara kapal mendadak rusak di tengah laut dan mengunjungi pantai terindah di Lombok bareng Lydia dan rene. Dari dulu kepengen banget ke Lombok, akhirnya pas lagi bulan puasa ada kesempatan juga kesana..senangnya.!!

Tahun ini gue yang biasanya ngerasa kesepian di kantor dan ngedumel melulu karena ngerasa ga punya temen, akhirnya kenal dengan temen-temen baru di kantor yang suka ngajakin makan siang keluar, karaoke, sampai tuker kado. Dan oh ya..picnic bareng divisi sampai ngerayain ultah kecil-kecilan sambil pesen hokben di ruang meeting hahaha.

Semoga kedepannya semakin banyak temen baru di mana aja.

Speaking of ulang tahun..tepat di tahun ini, I’m welcoming 30 (baca: three zero)…hihihii. Awalnya takut..tp lama-lama screw you. Walaupun tahun ini ga dapet birthday celebration dari the big boss, gue cukup bahagia dengan kumpul sama temen-temen terdekat dengan sederhana.

Kabar di akhir tahun yang cukup mengejutkan adalah kepindahan bos gue. Boss gue yang udah ngasih gue berbagai macam make up product, ngajak dinner, and giving me an opportunity to learn and experience new things, harus pindah melanjutkan tugasnya yang baru. Jujur sampai sekarang gue masih kepikiran  *aduh gimana ya ntar*, tapi selalu yaaa…berharap yang terbaik aja.

So in the end, untuk menutup akhir tahun, akhirnya gue belajar akan suka duka kehidupan. Belajar untuk ga cepet marah dan maki-maki di twitter, karena sungguhlah membawa bencana di banding keuntungan. Dan tau bahwa bukan gue doank orang yang bermasalah dengan blog dan …I’m not a marriage hater!

Dan bagaimana pun orang gossipin lo yang aneh-aneh dan saying bad things behind your back dan ngomongin macem-macem tentang lo..all you have to do,…. ya udah diemin aja..

Learning from my mom, kita memang harus baik sama orang. TITIK!

remembering my childhood

 London February 1994 - August 1997

so, i lived with my auntie *tante tiwwy* and oom Janes, they are the one who take care of me like my own parents.
On summer 1995, eyang and tante neneng came to London, visted us.

i was an ugly duck back then hehehe, this picture taken when i was in my year 7 at Park House Middle School



If i ....

If I were a month, I’d be December

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Friday

If I were a time of day, I’d be 07:00 am

If I were a planet, I’d be Venus

If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dolphin

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Bed

If I were a liquid, I’d be Wine

If I were a tree, I’d be a Maple tree

If I were a flower, I’d be a white rose

If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Piano

If I were a color, I’d be pink

If I were a fruit, I’d be a strawberry

If I were a sound, I’d be Acoustic

If I were an element, I’d be Gold

If I were a food, I’d be Lasagna

If I were a place, I’d be Santorini

If I were a taste, I’d taste like Sweet and Sour

If I were a scent, I’d be Clinique happy to be

If I were an animal, I’d be a polar bear

If I were an object, I’d be a Underwater Camera

If I were a body part, I’d be Eyes

If I were a song, I’d be Chasing Pavement - Adele

If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be flat shoes

the big 3

Today I feel really blessed.

All wishes, prayers, meant so much to me. Sometimes, I don’t realize that I do have friends indeed and in need.  i felt sometimes, I don’t have anybody. But..actually I do someone..someone who called  me early in the morning wishing a very happy birthday, received lots of birthday greetings on FB and twitter, not to mention whether they are close friends or not, but the attention and thoughts brings a special meaning. And most of all I have someone who always be there for me in sadness and happiness. And there is the most important one…family!!

So, I am now welcoming my life in threezero and I wish all the joy and laughter will stay within me.

And for you guys,..your each and every wishes are very touching and meant so much to me

Cheers

my october wish

Aku mau pergi jauh, ke tempat terpencil, cuma ada pantai pasir putih di ujung Indonesia celebrating my three zero

Pantai Balangan, Bali - April 2011

the birthday stroll

First thing first, before I head to another weekend, let me recap my birthday last week. On the day of my birthday, there were two disasters hits my beloved country, Indonesia. The explosion of Gunung Merapi and the other one is tsunami which strike one of the beautiful small island, Mentawai. There were lots of  casualties caused by these disasters and my deep condolence goes to them who have lost their loved one.

After Jakarta was also receiving a heavy rain and massive traffic, here I am with my family having seafood dinner at Kelapa Gading. We were really full with Ikan Gurame Goreng, Ikan Bakar, Kepiting Soka, Kangkung, Cumi and Udang saos Padang. Sounds very delicious, isn’t it.

Next day, I had a birthday celebration with my boss. The dinner it self take place in Harum Manis. It is a Fine dinning Indonesian cuisine which located in the area of Apartment Batavia. It was even more great, especially with the surprise cake which suddenly came with their home band singing happy birthday. Making me so touched and overwhelm. Not to mention, Harum Manis also giving me a one small plate of Tumpeng.
After we had dinner, we went to karaoke at Senayan City, XKTV. Last time I’ve been to this karaoke was when Erica having her bachelorette party. We had fun, except the karaoke remote control was totally irritating, it doesn’t really work properly. We even had the technical assistant coming to check the bloody remote and TV, and finally we changed room. Anyway..i had a wonderful time.

The following day was my time with Genk awur-awuran Ama, Riefa and Lydia. We had no other than Italian. Apparently this time we didn’t go to our favorite place Pepenero, but we choose to spend our session at Cheese Cake factory, Cikini. We didn’t want to take the risk to reach somewhere far despite of the heavy intense traffic. But it seems that even the closet place we could ever reach was also surrounded by traffic. How I hate Jakarta!!. As we catching up each other story, we also try to give our best friend a support and courage to face her big day of surgery. Hopefully, everything going well with her and she could get her spirit, smile and health back again.
Afterwards, we continue our silly conversation and laugh at Bakoel Coffe, which was just across the street from cheese cake factory. This time, I treated them a little something to drink.


On Friday, it was my time with Icha, Imel and Dessy. I decided to treat them at Ikan Bakar Pak Ugi. Not so convenient place tough, but it was definitely value for money along with the great taste. Taking this moment also, Imel was reviling her divorce story. Tragically she got abuse physically by her former husband. She is now standing as a single mother, struggling a better life for her and only son. I just want her to know that she always have her friends and family who always support her. But then again, I know the situations are not easy to deal with.
Just further down the street of Kelapa Gading Boulevard, we were craved for Es Pisang Ijo and so we went there and had a bowl of es pisang Ijo to close our night. Consider that as a desert.

As for this week closing, on Saturday afternoon I went to Social House for Lunch having a tasty four cheese pizza and fettuccini, not to mention the great ambience and even more complete with a little surprise birthday cake which brought by all the waiters in social house by singing happy birthday. I felt really embarrassed, but that was the sweetest. What can I say ????

After I met with Dewi who picked us up at Grand Indonesia, then we went straight to Bogor. The plan wasn’t really going too well when we arrived at House of Cupcakes. Nice little place, but actually there weren’t much variety of meals. Well, except the cupcakes, obviously.
And, since it was on Saturday night, many restaurants were full, but luckily we manage to get our self a seat at Warung Kita. We went to Puncak after we had dinner, just to have the taste of Jagung Bakar and feels the night cool weather there.

Then, it’s all a wrap.

:: Kadang banyak hal yang memang harus kita syukuri. Banyak hal yang bisa kita petik dari kehidupan orang lain di sekitar kita. If somehow you thought you are the loneliest person in this entire universe, well you are wrong. Some even sleeping with their dog just to keep them accompany and erase the loneliness out of their life. And also, I do learn one thing that happiness does come from within. Lots of married couple’s lived unhappy some got beaten by their spouse just like my friend. So, then again I was wrong. i used to think that getting married will bring to my happiness but unfortunately married might not be the only key to your happiness. But, the key to your own genuine happiness is your self.
So..go on create it.